Taster's Choice

28 December 2008
Tomas Morato

December brings out nostalgia. We are forced to assess what we have become in the past months and try to see what’s in store for us next year.

In a limbo between being drippy and ecstatic, I’ve pulled my portable DVD out of the closet and started to view one of the most memorable films I’ve ever seen. Amid the explosion and blast, I’ve found myself finishing a movie review of A Matter of Taste.


A Matter of Taste [Une Affaire de Gout]

Not for everyone’s taste but Une Affaire de Gout is an excellent film. Released in 26 April, 2000 under the direction of Bernard Rapp, this movie is unconventional and un-Hollywood. Thanks to Rapp’s experience as a journalist, he shuns away from too much drama and focuses on the lives of the characters in a very straightforward yet descriptive manner.

The story revolves around the friendship of Nicolas Riviere (Jean-Pierre Lorit), a young, good-looking waiter who has an exceptional talent in piano, and who has the most beautiful fingers Frederic Delamont (Bernard Giraudeau), a wealthy, middle-aged businessman and a bon vivant, has ever seen.

Smitten by Nicolas’ charm, Frederic offers a lucrative job Nicolas could not turn down – a personal food taster. Soon, Nicolas finds himself enjoying the job he once thought he won’t get used to. However, the friendship that has arisen between the two of them spirals downward into deceit and obsession neither of them are prepared.

The movie showcases the sensational portrayal of Giraudeau, who sucks up everything whenever he goes on screen. His powerful eyes and the very commanding voice leave his co-actors, and the audience completely mesmerised. Throughout the show, he never fails to stand out, always reminding everyone that he is the star of this show.

The movie is unconventional and bold, breaking in a matter in hand directors eschew in the spirit of money.

The Day Tyra Arrives

06 december, 2008

Tomas Morato

Amid the queues of party girls out to outdo themselves by applying several layers of make up on their faces already abounding in colours, I am battling with the feeling of unease that has started to creep into my synapses in a sporadic manner. Thanks to two cups of coffee and several sticks of Marlboro which keep on pushing me back to the real world, and which pave the way to the feeling of fulfillment and the sense of satisfaction.

Today, December 06, 2008, Tyra has become a dream come true. She is now officially part of the family. Her birth signifies another chapter of my life, which entails a handful of responsibilities.

For so long a time, I had dreamt the impossible dream. Tyra had been so elusive. Time and again, I had dismissed the idea of conceiving her. But the longing had been growing, and lurking in the deepest, darkest pits of my mind was the hope that time would come I would be able to finally feel her warmth.

But the universe is good to me; it conspires in helping me achieve what I want. I know that from time to time challenges would come but I am resolved to the highest level that I would flex all my muscle to ensure that Tyra would always be in good hands. Truly, good things happen to other aspect of your life when the other started to wane, let’s say work.

So from now on, my world would be revolving around Tyra, for my future would be with her. I know each day would become meaningful with Tyra. Don’t mind the work, it’s not worth the concentration; it won’t get any better anyway.

Wag Kang Matakot, Andito lang Kami

Tomas Morato,
18 October 2008

I've been itching to write these past days. My blogs have metamorphosed into vacuum they've already developed into a spectre that have been chasing me every now and then, drilling into my head that I've once again broken my pledge not to miss every opportunity to write.

I always think that my failure to update my blogs is due to a hectic schedule, a very lame alibi as even before I was born, the time is already stuffed in 24 hours. Probably, this only mirrors my ineffectiveness in managing my time and my tasks.

After revisiting some of my friends' blogs, a link steamrolled me into time-capsule. Deprived of strength, I anxiously conceded to the force which was heightened by the backdrop of a bleak Sunday afternoon tainted by the smoke of coffee and cigarette. Here's the article of Kenneth, a friend back in UP days, centered on nostalgia to the highest level.

MINSAN, ERASERHEADS

Napanaginipan ko sila noong nakaraang linggo. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. Sa panaginip, pumasok ako sa isang lumang bahay na gawa sa kahoy. Kulay orange ang ilaw. Nadatnan ko sa unang palapag si Ely Buendia. Sa ikalawa, si Buddy Zabala. Sa panghuling palapag, nakatanguan si Raimund Marasigan. Hindi ko maintindihan – hindi naman ako excited sa papalapit noong konsiyerto nila. Hindi ko naisip na manood. Pero nasa panaginip ko sila – maliban na lamang kay Marcus Adoro, ewan ko kung bakit – na ibig sabihi’y nasa laylayan ng kamalayan ko ang Eraserheads.

Siyempre, napanood at nabasa ko ang hinggil sa mga nangyari sa konsiyerto. Nakita ko sa telebisyon ang fans. Nakakuwentuhan ang mga kakilalang nanood. Parang reunion, sabi ng isa, hindi lang ng banda kundi ng isang henerasyon. May mga trabaho na, ang iba may pamilya na (dalawang kuwento mula sa konsiyerto: ang isang kakilala, si E, kasama ang asawa at mga kaedad na magpipinsan; ang isa pang kakilala, si J, pinambili ng tiket nilang mag-asawa ang perang dapat gagamitin sa bakuna ng anak). Kaya nang bumili ng relatibong mamahaling tiket. Kung dati, nang mga estudyante pa lamang kami, nagkakasya na sa hiraman ng tapes at pagpuslit papasok sa UP Fair, ngayon, kahit papaano, napagbibigyan na ang hilig. Better late than never.

Reunion nga, at wala ako doon. Sayang. Binalikan ko sa mp3 ang musika ng Eraserheads. Mula sa ultraelectromagneticpop! hanggang sa Carbon Stereoxide. Nasa Circus pa lamang ako – pasakay ng MRT tatlong araw na ang nakararaan – nang bumulaga sa akin ang realisasyon: Oo nga pala, fan nga pala ako nila. Kinalimutan ko na. Naalala ko ang isang kaibigan noong 1995, galit na galit siya sa Eraserheads, nakokornihan, at naiinis sa mga freshmen na ang unang tanong sa kanya’y kung saan makikita ang pinakasikat na banda ng UP. Para mapanatili ang pagkakaibigan, hindi na namin pinag-uusapan ang Eraserheads. Mas gusto raw niya ang Yano. Noong tagal, nahumaling kay Cynthia Alexander.

Pero fan nga pala ako. Parang kinimkim na emosyong bumulwak mula sa akin ang realisasyong ito pagdating ko sa kantang Minsan. Nasa masikip na tren ng MRT ako. Naluha ako. At hindi lang dahil tulad ng persona sa kanta, minsan akong tumira sa Kalayaan Residence Hall. Naluha ako dahil naalala ko ang panahong ito, ang pagkabata, ang pagkamulat. Taong 1994-95, sariwang sariwa, mula sa probinsiya. Wide-eyed freshie na tuwang tuwa na nakatuntong ng UP. Mababaw ang kaligayahan. Sangkatutak ang insecurities. Tinatagyawat. Kahit noon, nagtataka na ako sa kantang ito: Para naman yata ambilis tumanda ng mga ito. Nagno-nostalgia trip, para namang dekada na mula nang umalis sila ng pamantasan.

Pero kinausap ako ng kantang ito. At ng iba pa nilang kanta. Wishing Wells, Alapaap, kahit Huling El Bimbo – panay pagbabalik sa nakaraan ng persona. Pinaalala ng mga ito kung paano ako mag-isip noong panahong iyon, kung paano ko dinamdam ang mga kaganapan sa buhay. Naluha ako dahil naramdaman ko ang paglipas ng panahon. Naramdaman kong tumanda na ako, at nagbago na ang pananaw ko sa mundo. Naging seryoso ang mga pinagkakaabalahan: pulitika, pagsusulat, sining, aktibismo. Nakalulungkot na kinailangang kalimutan ko ang payak at simplistikong mundo ng pagkabata para maging pulitikal na tao. Naluha ako sa paglipas ng panahon, sa henerasyon ko at sa trivial, maliit, makitid na mundo nito.

Tinitingnan ko ang mga footage sa TV ng konsiyerto at naisip ko: pareho pa rin ang hitsura nila, parang hindi tumanda. Si Ely lang, pumayat. Siguro dahil sa sakit niya noong nakaraang taon. O dahil siya ang pinakaunang tumanda sa grupo. Sa pagsulat niya ng mga kantang tulad ng Minsan, Huling El Bimbo, Para sa Masa, parang siya ang pinakaunang nakaramdam ng paglipas ng panahon, ng pagbabalik-tanaw sa nakaraan at pag-aakalang mas maganda ang anumang nakaraan kaysa sa kasalukuyan. Masaya ang buhay-banda – epitomiya na siguro ito ng pagkabata. Naalala ko ang isang linya sa pelikula ni Cameron Crowe: sabi ng isang karakter, “Hindi ba pumasok tayo sa banda para iwasan ang responsibilidad?” Nasa banda raw ang karakter para pansamantalang ihinto ang orasan, at manatiling bata – juvenile, nakatira sa mundo ng “Rock n’ roll Neverland.“

Pero si Ely – siya na siguro ang unang kumawala sa Neverland. Siya ang unang kumalas sa banda, habang ang naiwang tatlo sinubukan pang palitan siya ng babaing bokalista pero di nagtagumpay. Nagpalagay ng brace sa ngipin, nagpagupit, nagbihis-burgis (nakita ko sa YouTube ang bidyo na ito na panauhin si Ely sa talk show ni Martin Nievera matapos tumiwalag sa ’Heads). Di nagtagal, nagtatag ng bagong banda (Mongols, saka Pupil), pero di na bumalik sa moda ng ’Heads – tila mas seryoso na ang pagiging musikerong artist, hindi na pinangarap na maging popular o populista (Ikumpara, halimbawa, kay Raimund, na kinakantahan pa ang Betamax hanggang ngayon). Wala nang hihigit pang patunay ng napakaagang pagtanda ni Ely sa tila napaagang pagkakasakit niya sa isang karamdamang madalas na naiuugnay natin sa katandaan – sakit sa puso.

Usap-usapang mauulit daw ang reunion concert. Pero tingin ko, hindi na dapat. Sapat na ang isang gabing nostalgia trip – hindi lamang sa musika ng isang henerasyon, kundi sa naglipas na sensibilidad at angas ng henerasyong ito. Tumitindi na ang krisis. Sobrang mahal na ng mga bilihin sa tindahan ni Aling Nena, laluna sa CASAA. Nagmahal na pati ang isaw sa tapat ng Ilang-Ilang. Nag-abroad na si Shirley (sana hindi siya mapabilang sa mga OFW na bumabalik sa bansa sa kahon). Nagbenta ng katawan sa magasin ang dating crush ni Ely. Hindi lang bugbog — pinapatay pa — ang inaabot ng mga bading na tulad ni Jay. Nasagasaan sa madilim na eskinita yung kamukha ni Paraluman.

Aktibista noon sa UP yung kaibigan kong galit na galit sa Eraserheads. Inisip ko noon, galit siya baka dahil wala siyang maaninag na pulitika sa musika ng banda. Maliban siguro sa pag-anyaya ni Raimund sa kalalakihang estudyante na tumiwalag, sumapi sa NPA at “palayain ang sarili,” at isang pagkakatong tumugtog sila sa isang rali kontra komersiyalisasyon sa UP noong 1996, iwas-pulitika at iwas-aktibismo ang Eraserheads. Sa isang pamantasang pinaniniwalaang may mayamang tradisyon ng aktibismo, hindi nila naiwasang makasalamuha at makaibigan ang mga aktibista (Dalawang ehemplo: si Bomen Guillermo ang pinakaunang kritikong nagpasikat sa banda, nang magsulat si Bomen ng rebyu ng demo tape nila para sa Philippine Collegian; at, noong 1998, naka-housemates ni Buddy sa Teachers’ Village ang ilang lider-estudyanteng aktibista. At, isa pa pala: Nag-opening act sa launch concert ng Cutterpillow ang bandang The Jerks, na sa kabila ng mga “boo” ay nag-alay ng kanta noong gabi para sa Pandaigdigang Araw ng Karapatang Pantao). Pero liban doon, banda lang talaga ang Eraserheads. Bandang masaya, magaling, henyo pa nga. Pero banda lang talaga.

Ganyan din ang sinabi ni John Lennon nang tanungin siya kung ano ang tingin niya sa penomenon ng Beatles ilang taon matapos magkanya-kanya sila: “We were just a band…” Aktibista na noon si John Lennon. Nagmartsa siya kasama ang mga Amerikano para labanan ang giyera sa Vietnam. Nagpahayag siya ng pagpabor sa sosyalismo. Naging anthem ng kilusang kontra-giyera ang mga kanta niya. Tulad ni Ely sa ‘Heads, tila si Lennon din ang pinakaunang tumanda sa – at unang na-outgrow ang – Beatles. Pero siya ang pinakabatang namatay. Sabi ng isang interpretasyon sa pagkahumaling ng assassin niya sa librong Catcher in the Rye, pinatay daw ng assassin si Lennon para manatiling inosente’t bata, parang yung karakter na kapatid ni Holden Caulfield na “catcher in the rye.”

Buhay pa naman si Ely, pero tumatanda na silang apat. At ang musika nila, nagiging instrumento ng gunita, ng pagbabalik-tanaw sa isang henerasyon, isang sensibilidad na naglaho na. Pero may panahon pa, para sa mga pahayag na “banda lang kami noon”, para sa mga martsa, mga pagpabor at pagtutol, pag-awit ng mga anthem, at pamumuhay sa mundo at realidad natin ngayon.

what my name means

03 may 2008
makati city


thanks to kim, i have something to relieve my tension-filled life today. through her kindness, i was able to locate a site that discloses my personality...hehe...





You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.



You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.



You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.



You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

the survivor

30 april 2008
makati city



"it’s better to burn out than fade away." – kurt cobain, 1967-1994

finally, i’m back. been buried by lots of things these past weeks i was totally asphyxiated. in fact, i was feeling i would puke every time i heard deck, csat, meeting, trends and analyses. these call centre higher ups patois cached me from seeing sunlight i almost believed i was interred six feet under. good thing chika surged like raging lava; otherwise, i would definitely end up cockscrewing my dandruff-clinging hair like a true blue nuts.

too morbid is my description because it really was. no other description is more apt. no hyperbolism. when i said "battles are my business," it did not occur to me that i would sweat bullets and canon balls in braving them.

this is far different from the usual hell weeks in college days. this was a matter of life and death...and surviving. for the first time, i was able to do an analysis, which was to be sent directly to client, in 20 minutes. this was on top of the deck that was to be sent to general manager and that entailed a series of focus group discussions and brow-knitting and mind-wringing. and again, on top of seminars and training i had to undergo.

and i survived. i can smile now because i am able to spend more than 3 hours of sleep. my skype status is already changed from "do not disturb" to "available", which means i am free to unleash my power to chika once more. i consider it right timing as a lot of changes, updates, transformations and metamorphoses have just taken place.

it’s better not to delve too much into negativity. the fact is, i survived. these past weeks too, my friend ayin introduced this positive thinking thing with the gist revolving around seeing things in rose coloured glasses. though skeptical at first, ayin was able to bring me around in trying this. anyway, wala namang mawawala sa akin.

so there goes my haggard days, the flow part of the vicious cycle of ebb and flow. now, it’s my turn to go back to sipping banana daiquiris atop of banana boat.

first call

21 april 2008
makati city

Good thing Ayin was still there. Otherwise, I might have been unable to connect to Saafi and Fernando, who were waiting like a ravenous tiger ready to fall its newly edged teeth to its hapless prey.

My emotions flew like a wayward missile. This was my first time to have a call on my own, with me as the facilitator and the clients as devil’s advocates. Not until that call, I thought I could easily weave words to satisfy the ears of the clients. Though I must admit that even with my conviction that is sometimes larger than life, I was still anxious to do it. Before hearing the growl on the other line, I was at a loss I just crossed my legs to pacify my urge to pee. Worst part was that Boss Robi was sitting behind me, which would mean that I could have sermon as my side dish for my breakfast.

When I heard Saafi’s voice, I was glad I was able to regain my composure. Thanks for the script and spiels I prepared which proved to be helpful in my presentation. Then the conversation began with me a little hesitant at first. It actually ran smoothly I gained enough courage to continue and vaunt our analyses and action items; in fact, lovely, as Saafi liked the format and that they don’t have any issues with the QA team right now.

So there I was, smiling throughout the entire call while alternately flipping through my script. Lots of time I lost focus as I was engrossed in savouring their comments. Boss Robi interrupted from time to time to seek some clarification or to add up something I almost forgot to point out. During the wrap up part, Fernando and Saafi reiterated the necessity to keep a keen eye on the supervisors. I just shrugged my shoulder and gave Boss Robi a victorious look.

At exactly 7am, I heard the click on the other line. Only then was I able to breathe normally. Light discussion ensued, outlining what-to-do’s in the light of that call. But I was too busy to care anymore. So as soon as Boss Robi stepped out of the room, I immediately grabbed my bag and proceeded to somewhere I could silently celebrate my first call.

tuesday with melon

16 april 2008
makati city

It is now a week delayed. And it has nothing to do with melon. It’s just I think it would look more poetic and cutie using this title. Anyway, to some extent, it would matter as I just doused the Tuesday afternoon heat wave away with several glasses of melon shake.

My Tuesday afternoon was not in its usual boring fashion. I woke up early (in my ordinary days, getting out of bed at 11am is record-breaking) and tried to brush off the cobweb that had been lodging in my gray matter for the longest time. Playing on the background were the early 90’s songs from women-led bands (Hole, the Cranberries, 10,000 Maniacs and Moonpools and Caterpillar), I couldn’t help looking back when I was romantically-attached to everything surrounding me. I was flammable by then, which made me explode and swell at no exact point in time.

Songs of grunge bands, Eraserheads and women-led bands encapsulate my mood in my juvenile years – a tug of war between being angst-ridden and dreamy, almost chimerical. This is the era of being "cool," the household word at that time it had already lost its meaning and sense. If I would be asked what made me cool at that time, I would definitely cite my engrossment to the bands with women as the vocalists, more than the Tretorn, loose tuck in, date with whoever were the coolest guys and gals on campus and Penshoppe.

Around that time, I was a hopeless romantic trying hard writer, oozing with "I hate myself I wanna die" attitude as it was a compulsory for soon-to-be English major and pa-literati crowd. With our throat alternately sucking up black smoke of Marlboro and black coffee, it was a de rigueur for us, pseudo-quasi-semi writers, to write heart-wrenching short story over ear-splitting Jeremy or Smells like Teen Spirit. This only shows that at that time, hearing these bands was a requirement to be cool in our crowd.

My liking on this music genre actually transcended the preference and taste and the trying to be cool. It became a part of attitude and belief. Although they’re undeniably pleasant to the ears, they do not just pierce my heart; they smash my soul into smithereens. That’s the real score on my decision to lock myself in my room when Kurt Cobain committed suicide…hehe…

It was a time-capsule experience; my mind was being rewound to the flush of life. Could’ve-beens and should’ve-beens crept through my synapses but I was too busy to care. Until Courtney Love’s voice was drowned by the alarm clock that reverberated around the room.

when carmi martin strikes back

07 april 2008
makati city

after the ebb comes the bubonic plague of work. yes you’ve heard it right; i’ve been bugged by the weight of the bandwidth right now. tons of works in different shades and hues. though i have been anticipating this, it’s never occurred to my mind that it would be as bulky and burdensome as this. even if it is against my will, i have to say goodbye to sipping banana daiquiris atop of banana boat.

for the first time, i have to admit that i am now in a "culture shock." not necessarily overwhelmed but more of windang and haggardo verzosa considering i have been in the post for almost two months. changes come one after the other, from the most discerning to the most insensitive, smallest to biggest, most silent to the most blaring ways and forms and fashions. they come not in one but usually in waves, or in series. and they haunt me, dwell into my mind, drilling into my brain just like tiny monsters banging in the wall of my head with placards shouting "do it ASAP, or else…"

this is my first time to write about my work as a qa supervisor since assuming the position on the 22nd of February. but, i won’t delve too much into it as two months are too short to share my routine. i need to gain a lot of experiences and learn tons of lessons first. it's just i’ve had the urge to flesh out some part of it, hoping that this would make things a little clearer since in normal times, i would just snatch away time and attention of my friends who are wont to sucking up my haggardness while sucking up black smoke of cigarette over a cup of coffee.

i know there are more to come. i just need to jot down everything to, to the words of ming ling in the soong sister, a very brilliant and brave film, "cut the bullshit." anyway, i told my manager during my interview for this post that i always choose my battles, and i don’t take them sitting down. in a nutshell, and to make it a sound bite, "battles are my business."

in retro

05 april 2008
makati city.


29 February 2008 –


my hair was still in a total mess when i received a text from a friend. with a stick of marlboro squashed in between my fingers, i eagerly read the message. it was a forwarded message: ate, kilala mo daw yung barret ng batch 10? patay na daw po.


wilbert was a classmate in high school. he was from the group of prim and proper, inversely proportional to the crowd i was associated with that was a bunch of rockers wannabe (at that time, i mean). they were the well-ironed-uniform-wearing classmates who would fit in the definition of "hot guys/gals" while we were the cool guys/gals who never cared how do we look like. despite the differences, we actually didn’t have any problems chilling out together. we were able to whip through our distinctness.


it was in the kamalig that the ties among the members of our batch started to flower. like anyone else, wilbert was a total stranger to us, further bolstered by his surname which sounded foreigner. but kamalig explored the ways to converge us, paving the way to the friendship we’ve been holding on to until this very day. until finally, we’re able to figure out each strengths and weaknesses.


i have actually been preparing to see my classmates as, during the last entry to our batch blog, it has been agreed upon that we would hold our get-together after a decade of hiatus. the last time i caught a glimpse of wilbert was when we’re obliged to clean the entire school just to get our hard-earned…good moral certificate. this was the consequence of escaping from practising graduation for a batch picnic. it’s still vivid in my memory how we plugged our asses away from sleeking the entire building, with sweats dripping like flowing on our foreheads.


up to now, it is still a puzzle to us what really took place. several stories have been in rounds, but none of them are confirmed. some assume that his death was related to his work, as he’s an engineer and some not-so-nice guys might have not liked the way wilbert dealt with them. i’ve always pictured wilbert as a boy-next-door type who’s willing to share his shoulders to be leaned on and extend hands to those who need his help. i guess he stuck to that image till a wacko put him to silence forever.


it is still hard to imagine that wilbert would be no longer with us on our get-together he planned. in memen's words, nakakalungkot.

can't afford gucci but we wear honesty*

04 april 2008
makati city




like a space cadet to narcotics, i’ve been hooked to brian gorrell’s blog. more than the expose on manila’s powers-that-be in the fashion world, it is brian’s quest for honesty and integrity that strikes me. anyway, here’s a poster that appears on the blog, c/o one of his supporters.

*for more chika, go to www.delfindjmontano.blogspot.com

petiks in the time of haggardness

01 april 2008
makati city


i'm having the event of my life these past days. my bosses are not in their usual "i need an analysis on the drop of satisfaction score in 5 minutes" fashion. skype has stopped blinking and the avaya phone has been sitting silently in front of me like a paper weight. my mailbox is now an hour empty, except for the occasional spams i've gladly received.


of course, this day has brought a fresh start courtesy of a new hairstyle and a new pair of shoes. at least even if i'm haggard, i could still pull it off because of this new facade. or that's what i want to think of.


well, since there's an unbelievable absence of client call, meeting with the management, complaints against the reports, clarifications on the operations supervisors, workshop and coaching with qas, i am able to tag along the trail and tale of brian gorrel. much has been said about his revelations about the "gucci gang," the group of celine lopez, tim yap, tina tinio and other socialites and its alleged freeloading activities and use of "coke," i don't think i cannot ask for more. the story is very detailed and visual it is as if i am acquainted with these personalities/celebrities. the story is, in fact, omnipresent in the four corners of blogsphere.


after satiating myself with the dynamite, i've browsed the inquirer. not a good idea. right before my eyes are the big bold letters of "World Bank lists sources of corruption in Philippines" parading across the page. too heavy for my eyes as i've decided not to immerse too much to political arena. too constraining for a mind that has long kissed off the meaning of rest. or simply, it's just too hot to handle.


so i just sit in front of this pc, wishing that the chair would turn into a banana boat where i can stretch my legs while having banana daiquiris. now that is the real event of my life.

4.40 AM, sa office

29 march 2008
makati city
happy anniversary!

still at the office, finishing the things i should have abandoned. times like these bring me back to reality check, though it is still hard to figure out as i've totally lost my sanity these past few weeks. anyway, right now, several thoughts, disorganised or unorganised, keep banging at the thickness of the wall of my head.

1. my neglect to give life to this blog. been a long time since i put something interesting in it. i've, in fact, lost tracked to what is my last entry. nobody cares anyway, but up to now, i still enjoy looking at the template i've borrowed.

2. my flakes are branching out of my head. don't know anymore what shampoo to use or how many times should i comb my hair. it's getting kadiri na especially i am wont to using dark shirts.

3. my hair is obviously in protest. every strand has its life of its own. everyday is my bad hair day. plan to have them toned down soon, a plan that has been going in rounds for years.

4. need a new pair of shoes. period, no need to explain.

5. pants and poloshirts to pop up prim and proper portrait especially if talking to a client. nothing is mortifying than shaking hands with the client with big Arial Black "I lost virginity.." screaming on the shirt.

the list is never-ending. this is how bottle up i am. and now, i need to get back to auditing.

happy birthday, jd salinger!

"I keep picturing all these little kids playing some game in this big field of rye and all… I'm standing on the edge of some crazy cliff. What I have to do, I have to catch everybody if they start to go over the cliff - I mean if they're running and they don't look where they're going I have to come out from somewhere and catch them. That's all I do all day. I'd just be the catcher in the rye."

jd salinger